Leave me alone. Im writing a New Year Resolution

aaah yes its New Year's Eve. Its funny you know somehow. A new year its always so promising. Yeah definitely this year ill do this ill do that , itl be the best year ever. And this goes on an on every year. Ok This year I will finish my book. I will really. I said it last year too you know. What happned you ask? Well , you know new job and stuff and some problems , two many obstacles , anyway this year can take no more delay. I will finish it writing. Yeah cause anyway this year will be better.
Darn right every year is the best, you know but somehow someway some crooked god succesfuly stopped us and we had so many obstacles. Yeah, but I ll never give up hope. And anyway if i cant make it happen this year it will happen the next year, right ? Right ? Comone i have a lot of time , no probs. Its true i said the same thing for years ago. And I was right, i was young and I still am.
Ok if you have any advice for me cause i know you are just dying to give it to me just go ahead.


Ok, you asked for and advice. Here s an advice from your inner voice whom you are not listening to very often. I know very well, and please pliiiiiz do not deny it, you looooove procastination. Yes you do, come on. Let me just say what I have to say and I will be on my way. Its this possible paradox this days : Procrastinate procrastination, delay the delay. Look here pal your life cannot suffer any delay. This year cannot suffer any delay too. Now I know you have been very indulgent and tolerant with yourself, arent we all, and i ve laid low and have been quiet. But now i have to tell you buddy : You have lived a quarter of a century now, for years you have had time to accomplish any goal to make possible any dream but you refused it cause you kept delayin it and so their importance diminuished soo much that you almost forget them. And this is very very sad. I assume you are here on this planet in this world with some mission to accomplish. You have been given by God this privilege. I know you dont understand this fully, and you keep bitchin bout your life. But listen to me you ingrate gnat, you cry baby : It is a n honor for you to be here and for everybody, its an honr and a privilege to be hear and it is a privilege for you to understand this. The missions you have bben assigned are your goals, you dreams , you ideals. Forsake them and you forsake your mission, you forsake yourself. Now this is what i had to say. the rest is up to you. Have the will to accomplish your most unimportant goal and you wil hav the will and power to move this earth !

On Apolinic vitality and Dionissian apathy

Can't help noticing thought that the traits that defined the aeastern and western have awfully changed and reversed. And I wonder why great nations in history which conquered empires have grown into totall and absolute pussies. How did that happened. What happened to Great Britain once the most great empire ever now invaded by pakis, indians and other nations and populaces dominated by the evil Dionysos ? Now the slaves became the masters and the masters became slaves by their own will. Now the Great Western cvilization resembles so much the Roman empire and I hate to see how it turns into it becoming more and more a ruin. A ruin and soon a good foundation for the Great Mosque.

Apollinic vitality and Dionissiac apathy

Even this two concepts are so different they are so often fortunately and unfortunately part of my life, of everybody's life. Even today ,this morning I am enslaved by the Dionissian apathy hoping that later I will be liberated by the holy and pure Apollnian vitality. some say that the Dionissian is vitality and Apollinian is measure but for me the Dionissian vitlaity is laziness , apathy and total detachment,it is a destructive vitality, a reversed vitality. The vitality that fuels you to do nothing. But I should stretch this to concepts and apply them to nations and races. The Western vitality and the oriental eastern lack of will and apathy, though it seems, and history shows it that the first becomes also destructive.